When someone means the WORLD to you…. what’s the most important thing you ask for in return?
Honesty
But what if I can’t tell you who I really am? Why I am the way I am. Why I do the things I do.
What if I’m afraid to let you fully in?
I’m sorry but I can’t be honest with you.
Being undocumented has made me quite the liar. I’ve lied to so many people that mean the world to me for months and sometimes even years. When you have someone special in your life whether it’s a friend or an intimate relationship, it’s always hard to show them a side that many might not know about you.
A starry night…oh god, please let him understand… Sitting on the dock… accept me for who I am… tears role down my checks… dramatic pause… surprise surprise… this is me…
It’s been a while since I’ve had to do this but I’ll never forget certain peoples reactions.
“What you’ve had to go through makes you who you are. I love who you are and that’s not about to change.” I've had someone tell me, " You have no idea how knowing your status affects me as well. I'm scared to death that one day you could get taken away."
Our status not only affects our future goals and aspirations but they can also directly and indirectly affect the intimate relationships we have. There’ll come a day, oh that glorious day, where I won’t have to be afraid to confess and admit who I am and where I came from. I’m terribly sorry I’ve lied but that day will come…
Till then, I’ll keep DREAMing. I’ll keep ACTing.
Dreaming and believing is only half the battle. Acting and working hard is what’ll get us through the other half.
DREAM ACT