I got a certain lust for life.....And as it stands,
Everything is going as right......As it can,
They tryin' to shoot down my flight.....Before it lands,
............Before it lands...”
I’m still soaring above this cloud, my own cloud of hope. Last night, I could not sleep, pondering about all the things that I have missed out due to my immigration standing. I could write forever about this and make a post jam-packed of dismal things that most of us DREAMers go through, but I’d much rather focus on the things I want out of life once I jump this hurdle.
I cannot wait for the day I can go back to school. I cannot wait to roam the only place where I once felt normal, my university campus. This was the only place I could walk around without ever having to explain to anyone why my life was not like everyone else’s. This was the only place where I felt like I was just another scholar, striving to do something positive with my life.
One of the things I have had to deal with is lying to my friends. I have been put in positions where I had to decide between my wellbeing in this nation to betraying my own values. This has been much worse than not being able to drive, have a steady income or even feeling normal. It has been tremendously difficult for me to deceive the principles instilled in me by my parents.
Dear my friends.... I’m sorry, I’m not a liar. Thus, I cannot wait until the day I no longer have to lie to those who I care about.
I want to live! I want to breathe! I want to know what it feels like to wake up each and every morning knowing for sure that this will not be my last day as a free human being in this country. Well, come to think about it, I am not free.
I have a certain lust for life, and I want it bad. I think about it day and night. I DREAM about it every single night. What will my life be like?
I can only imagine.
For now, I just wake up and call my Congressmen.
Do the same, Peace.
DREAM AGENT J
